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My hair and discipleship

Oh man it has been a while since I've wrote in this. So let's start with my hair. Can you tell from the pic that I'm feeling my eyes? Can't wait til I can wear my contacts! Back to my hair!
Right now, It's in some mini twists. This morning I washed it with tresseme naturals conditioner (the moisture one) and I left it in all day. Unfortunately, that also did nothing much to retain moisture but create a gel-like hold. The only thing that seems to work is when I put oil in my hair and I pull in back in one . So I just put water, oil and kckt in it from root to tip and I'm going to leave it out and see how my hair keeps the moisture. If this does not work, I'm going to have to invest in a good wig or moisturize every six hours, because this dry climate is going to break off all this hair I'm trying to grow. And yes, I have been watching vids with girls that have ridiculously long hair. SMH!

This past weekend, I attended a discipleship training, in which they were training us to intentionally disciple our students. One thing that really got to me was when the speaker said something like, "It is possible for a child to go through church school,and sabbath school and pathfinders and ay, etc, and still not be a disciple of Jesus Christ." I was like, "Wow!!" There are generations that fill that bracket. People who did all the right forms throughout their youth and yet the are not truly followers of Christ. One of the traits of being a disciple is that you become a disciple-maker. We become disciples to make others disciples. I'll be honest. Part of the reason why I want to participate in evangelism so much is because I feel that I haven't been a true disciple. I AM NOT A DISCIPLE-MAKER! Yes, I worked with a ministry that sought to preach the gospel and baptize people. And yes, I did biblework for this same ministry after receiving minimal training from a short staffed ministry. But the contacts I made are non-existent now. Evangelism is truly a work of the Holy Ghost. And one thing that I'm getting from the 40 day devotional I'm doing and from the weekend at Camp Wawona studying discipleship is that the Holy Spirit is necessary. So this goes for myself and all my friends that grew up with me in the church who were trained to go through the form of Christianity but not power. It's not an insult because I went through it to and I am praying for all of us. My prayer is that we wake up and allow God to use us to bring in His kingdom. I'm so sick and tired of being the stable SDA girl without any power to make the strongest commitment to Christ that may require my life: Discipleship.
Unfortunately, my obsession with my hair is getting in the way of this discipleship. How am I supposed to wake up on time to have my quiet time with God? Staying up mad late to moisturize and watch vids about hair. I'm praying about hair guys.  
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