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Oh No! Not my music!

I just realized my desire for a dastardly dramatic love affair may come from music choices. Check out my playlist:
Love - Musiq Soulchild
The Chain - Ingrid Michaelsom
This Time - John Legend
This Time - Melanie Fiona
Like You'll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys

Love songs - every single one. Some are just talking about love. Some are pleading for love. Some are talking about love lost. But every single one is about love.

I'm seeing too much in every male appearance in my life even though I'm not mentally or practically ready for a relationship. I've been feeling for something reckless but that's not for me. So everything has got me wondering if I'm attractive "enough" to the opposite sex. Grrr! I'm not that chick. I'm giving up really fast. Because I can't win and that's not the fight I want to fight right now in my life. I want to fight to be good enough for me not the male population. Love songs got me fighting for something that I don't want and am not ready for. Screw love songs.

"Deliver me, O Lord, from the evil man... the upright shall dwell in thy presence."

 Psalm 140

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