Caught in a Bad Romance

I understand that I must be discerning and wise when it comes to men. I realize that I must make good choices when it comes to men, since it would be essential in building the character of my children. But I would like to be given the opportunity to like someone dashing and/or handsome and/or charming who like me back. I would enjoy a man's attention. Unfortunately, I do not have the disposition that would allow me to be free to pick just any man that presents himself regardless of their character or personality. Nor do I have the luxury of being completely free of self conscious thought which allows me to assume that I cannot ever be sincerely complimented. But for a day, I want that freedom. A whirlwind romance, a love affair, a bad romance. Comedic right? Bad romances are for the careless and irresponsible.

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Die, Chick, Die!

Yeah...problems. I have cried more in these last weeks in front of people than I ever have. First last week, I cried because I made mistakes. This week, I cried because I interjected in a confrontation between John and Nadine ( my host parents) and I felt so justified but I suppose the Holy Spirit is working in me, or maybe it was self rising up in me but I felt remorseful about my outburst and I cried in front of them again as I was apologizing to John. Poor John. Poor host family. I believe crying is a response to the books I've been reading about dying to self. But I cannot discern whether it is the Holy Spirit or self that is causing this emotional response in me. But I am realizing the futility of self and it sucks being unstable. In other news, My hair is a mess. I slept on my twistout last night becasue I didn't want to twist them over again and risk more breakage. One side of my head is all straggly and the other side is full and luscious...

My hair and discipleship

Oh man it has been a while since I've wrote in this. So let's start with my hair. Can you tell from the pic that I'm feeling my eyes? Can't wait til I can wear my contacts! Back to my hair! Right now, It's in some mini twists. This morning I washed it with tresseme naturals conditioner (the moisture one) and I left it in all day. Unfortunately, that also did nothing much to retain moisture but create a gel-like hold. The only thing that seems to work is when I put oil in my hair and I pull in back in one . So I just put water, oil and kckt in it from root to tip and I'm going to leave it out and see how my hair keeps the moisture. If this does not work, I'm going to have to invest in a good wig or moisturize every six hours, because this dry climate is going to break off all this hair I'm trying to grow. And yes, I have been watching vids with girls that have ridiculously long hair. SMH! This past weekend, I attended a discipleship training, in whi...

Don Lemon Update!

This Video made me think of Don Lemon. You'll see why. The media seems to be so accepting of homosexuality and yet not accepting of those who choose to be heterosexual after clearly experiencing the homosexual side of things. Poor Antoine Dodson has to deal with people hating on him because he has chosen a different lifestyle. As I watch the video, I am a little annoyed that the anchor woman seems to find no problem with insulting millions of people who believe in a higher power and that higher power by sarcastically stating "pray the gay away". Can you say biased? She seems to be offended by his instability in choosing a sexual identity. People change their minds all the time. Why can't he be accepted for choosing to be a heterosexual? Antoine Dodson is definitely brave. But then his personality is so huge, he could pull it off. I definitely appreciate Don Lemon's personality. I appreciate his support of Black History Month and the need for it. I li...

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