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Rebellion


When I was about 17-18 (late teens), I woke up one Sunday morning and I opened my Bible to read. Now, it was during the time when I was very mystical about my Bible reading. Whatever verse I opened the Bible to had a "special" message for me for the day. So I would open and point/look. That morning I opened and my eyes rested on Ezekiel 12:1-3. This is what it says:

The word of the LORD also came unto me, saying, Son of man, thou dwellest in the midst of a rebellious house, which have eyes to see, and see not; they have ears to hear, and hear not: for they are a rebellious house. Therefore, thou son of man, prepare thee stuff for removing, and remove by day in their sight; and thou shalt remove from thy place to another place in their sight: it may be they will consider, though they be a rebellious house. 

I was flabbergasted because I could define my house as being rebellious by the meaning of the verse. But I did not want to take the scripture out of context. So that morning I sat in bed and read chapter 1 - 12. I still felt the message was for me to leave my house but I did not leave. Not until I was 22. I see in me a rebellious spirit that wants to do whatever it wants to do, no matter what the truth is. I fear that because I did not leave then, I may be stuck with a trait of rebelliousness or it may be hard for me to let go of since it is such a practiced habit. I know what I want to do I just have fear that it is the wrong decision.

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